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Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Although no names are mentioned, characters belong to Fox
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Acknowledgements: thanks to Circe I. for the beta
Summary: Questions...
Sometimes I wonder if this is real. Am I really in love or have I
deluded myself into believing I am? Knowing the things I know now about
the life that lives beyond our reach, do I look to him to allay my fears
of being in this world, of existing with them? Do I feel I need him to
bring me the answers that forever nag me from somewhere beyond my conscious
thoughts? Or is it merely a longing for the physical touch, for those
private, tender moments between us? Have I simply tired of being alone?
Have I mistaken these needs for love?
I wonder how other people see us. I wish I could have their
objectivity for just a moment. I wish I could know what makes me
feel the way I do. What I do know is that I am drawn to this man, both
physically and emotionally. It is not at all as I would have imagined
it, it's more difficult, more tumultuous. But maybe having found the person
who can do all of this for me is to have found love. Maybe this is love.